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[bzarcher]

Well, we just got done delivering a bunch of Christmas stockings to all of the various IT departments. Not bad, and a decent use of an hour. However, I had to alter my santa hat to make it fit, as the 'one size fits all' didn't really anticipate someone with a head shaped like a potato.

A very overstuffed potato, at that. Filled with knowledge, wit, and bitterness. And topped with sour cream and chives.

Quote upon visiting the most hated App Development department (who tends to waste everyone's time, we're learning): "We're bringing them Christmas Cheer....and SARS."



I must note, though, that unlike it's normal state of being garnished with bacon bits, my potato-head is currently accented with shredded guilt. :/

Last night things with Lisa and I were just a little off, and I feel like it's my fault. I tried to put energy into RP and spending some time with her, but it seems like I just came off disconnected and hollow, which is not how I wanted to be at all. After 3 days of little to no contact, I wanted to show how I'd missed her and take her out to enjoy herself, and I failed pretty miserably.

It didn't help that she had to leave abruptly last night, and now I'm worried if she or things at her home are OK, and if I might have contributed to that, too.

I'm gonna apologize as soon as I see her.

And if you're reading this, love...I'm sorry. I will say it more, and again, but I am sorry, and I don't have a good explanation for myself.

Comments

[heatherbeast.livejournal.com]

Dude,

Relationships are not perfect 24/7. :> Granted, you aren't supposed to be punching each other in the face. However, don't think of yourself as being inhuman because your body *IS* human and you become tired/etc. It's not some affront to true love if you don't catapault into the air and do triple barrel rolls every time you see your dearest log in/walk in/etc.

*hugs*

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I know, but I just feel like I was 'meh' beyond usually acceptable 'mehness', you know?

[angeljester.livejournal.com]

I'm sure that it's ok dear.

We All honestly have those nights. We don't mean things to come out the way they do (cold and empty) but they come across that way regardless of our intent. A few simple words of explanation and a well timed hug and cuddle with a kiss tends to solve a lot of those nights.

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

*nods* I realize that 90% of the time, I worry needlessly. Especially with how well she understands me, even when I don't, entirely. Unfortunately, the only problem to your solution is the 400 miles seperating us. :/

[angeljester.livejournal.com]

Ouch - had forgotten *lowers head*

mmm...send an email card?

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

It's okay. :D Sometimes she seems so close that I forget, too.

Though, as you can see below...I think things are taking care of themselves. *blush*

[gigerlicious.livejournal.com]

I suppose I'm agreeing with you on this issue in spirit - relationships aren't perfect all the time, but dammit they should be. To settle for anything less is complacent and leads to a stagnancy.

I also agree on your resolution to the issue, but it's the guilt aspect I don't comprehend. You're right to try and rectify the situation, but that is not something to feel guilty for.

Buck up, suck up and come back when you fuck up.

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

I suppose the guilt is how I mishandled things after such an absence. But yes, fair enough.

And thanks.

*Hugs and cuddles...no kissing as I am possiably contagious.*

[skarlette.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, please do not feel bad about last night. I was cranky with PMS and the Flu (Whar a combo over the holidays yes?). I left abruptly because I had to use the restroom and did not know how long I was to be there. Please do not feel bad. This was not your fault, okay? I am sorry if you got that impression. So it's okay, really. I feel much better after a goodnight's sleep, medicine and mint tea. Ahhh, what the hell...*Kiss*

*hugs back and cuddles you up much...*

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

Oh. Well, do believe me that I felt like some of it was me, too. *gives you juice*

I am glad you're feeling better today, though...and as you said. What the hell. *Kisses back.*