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[bzarcher]

I failed you.

I said I'd be here when you returned.

And though I tried to catch you when I realized you'd beaten me home...you left, and I don't know if you realized...

I feel like I broke my promise to you.

And for once my tears are not falling out of rage.

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[(Anonymous)]

*hugs* We all make mistakes, you know.

[(Anonymous)]

...Well, I guess I really haven't said enough. So I'll try to get out the rest of what's on my mind...

BZA, I've never known you to in my view really fail anyone. You put your all into everything you pursue -- everything. And if there's nothing more you can do, you don't bang against the wall, but (all too reluctantly, really) admit that it's there. Your only real flaw is that you beat yourself up for your own wisdom, or for simply not managing to do what you're tryign to despite your best efforts. Not trying as hard as you know how, can morally stomach, and is within the realm of possibility is when you've failed someone. Even if someone suffers, you haven't failed them if you've done your best.

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

I understand what you're saying, and appreciate it...but this is not really the same.

I gave my word I would be there, and then I was not.

I did not keep my promise. And while I am feeling better, I still hate to break my promises, even unintentionally.

[demeterschild.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart...breathe.

It's understandable that clocks don't sync up on occasion. I'm sure she understands. It's one of the flaws in a long-distance relationship...you just can't be around every waking moment you're not busy doing something else. It's tough to be home with someone when you two don't really have a communal space to call home.

Trust me.

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

*sighs*

I know you're right. And I am working on easing up on me. I just...yeah.

I wanted to make sure her day would end better than it started.

I'm working on it. I promise.

*coughs delicately and hands you a handkerchief*

[skarlette.livejournal.com]

Love, believe me, I am not at all ripped about this. I certainly don't expect you to put your life on hold for me (Just like I know you would not want me to put my life on hold either) It's cool, please love? I really do understand. Don't fash yourself over it. *S*

*Drying my eyes gently, and then hugging you*

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

Okay, okay. I promise. Matt will be happy and good.

I know you understand. It's one of the things about you I love most. :D

*kiss* I shall be unfashhed. ;D