On the matter of progeny.

[bzarcher]

skarlette heard some of this yesterday...or the day before? I forget which. But. I decided something kinda major about my life.

I'm not gonna have kids.

I love skarlette, and believe me, I am all about the lovemaking. But not kids. Not just because I've been dealing with all these stupid camper brats all month, either.

First, there is the fact that m'lady is not interested in them, and I admit that got me considering the possibility of not having them. But she was not the major factor in my decision.

Second, the fact that while I am a good short-term caretaker (babysitter, teacher, etx), I really don't think I'm capable of long-term. My temper's not cut out for it, and I'm not sure I can give them the treatment a child would deserve. (Yes, my treatment by my father affected this decision. But I don't think it makes it any less valid.)

Third, I'm a gamer, a computer nerd, and occasionally a writer or painter. None of these lifestyles are terribly safe for kids to be around until certain ages, and pawning the kid off onto my beloved mate while I had fun and she didn't doesn't seem fair.

Fourth....well...fourth is that I honestly can't imagine myself as a father. Lover, boyfriend, someday maybe a husband, yes. I can imagine those. But not a father.

Fifth, I'm waiting the various genetic defects in my family pop up with alarming speed in increasing generations, including my sister and several of my cousins, to say nothing of the non-weight related health problems of my parents and grandparents on both sides of the family.

Sixth, I don't know what I want to do with my life, and that seems like it would shut a lot of doors.

Seventh is that I think Cats will give me all the headaches, 3am terror, and regular expenses I'll ever need.

I know some of these may seem dumb to people. But the more I think about this, the more comfortable I am with it.

Now, I may change my mind in the future, sure. But for now, I'm gonna stick with this.