I'm scared out of my mind, Mr. Man.

[bzarcher]

There was a note on the fridge to call the state farm agent who is handling the car financing stuff just to check if he needed any more info from me since I'm in town.

Me: *ring ring* I'd like to speak to (Agent)?
*On hold for 10 minutes*
Agent: Hi, Matt! What can I do for you?
Me: Hi. I just wanted to see if you needed any additional info for the car financing, because I'm in Columbus for the long weekend.
Agent: Oh, no! Actually, it -is- looking pretty good. I'm just waiting for the final word back, and we should have that before noon today.
Me: Okay, great!
(pleasant side chatter, how's school going, etx.)
(hang up)

The fearsnake started up in my guts after that. Not about the loan as such, but the whole package.

Once I get this car, there are only three things standing between me and "adulthood".

1) Gradutation. (Less than a year away, and unless I go into a tequila coma during my I.S. orals, I think I'm gonna walk cum laude.)
2) Job. (USIT has repeatedly told me that I'm not leaving Wooster without a damn good job offer from them, as competitive as they can make it.)
3) Some form of house or apartment payment. (God only knows, but I'm sure -something- will happen. And technically I pay for the room I live in at school during the summer at a reduced apartment rate.)

This is it. From here on out, even if I decided to take a year off and go to grad school, my life is in my hands, and no-one elses. The safety nets and comfortable shelters are going away.

I think I can do it. Hell, I think I'll be able to do it well.

But it's still pretty damn sobering. I am gonna be a "productive" member of society all too soon. I'm all grown up now, Wendy.

I just wonder if Tink will still come by to fly with me?

Comments

Re: Leaving Neverland

[cadence19k.livejournal.com]

Good luck! :)

Beware guys your age bearing dark German beer. Long story of my first night in Germany, I'll probably tell it someday, if asked nicely.

Been on my own for almost 13 years, and well, there's not much advice I can offer. It's different for everyone. I know Doomflower is on her way out too.. it's odd, I've known her for over 5 years, and she's finally growing up on me. *sniff*

Such is the life of an online family. And don't give up believeing in that Faith, Trust, and Pixie Dust bit, it still works at times.

Growing Up

[doomflower.livejournal.com]

It's a different experience for everyone. And yes, there's some fear involved, some self-doubt...but those are normal.

You're a very intelligent, confident person, Matt, and I know you're going to do very well.