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May. 26th, 2004 09:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bzarcherI am an utter fuckup.
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neeri needed to push up me helping her look for a car today, so I made arrangements with Alex to delay going to olde mill for a bit to do so.
The dealership took forever, which was not helped by my bad directions to get to Sterling because I didn't realize she was coming from the opposite side of town. Then Alex had to wait because he showed up while we were finishing her test drive. Then they tried to get her into something she didn't want. Not good, and I didn't help enough.
When Alex and I were getting ready to go, I found out that we did not have a couple hours as planned, but less than an hour due to him not remembering an exam he needed to study for. And he mentioned that he really wanted to be in a hurry. So as he followed me over to olde mill, I hurried. And I hurried well enough that I lost him in the Sawmill road traffic. In fact, well enough that he got pissed when I called to apologize, and he went home without ever looking at the apartment because I was being 'way too dangerous'. Probably true.
So. I fucked up someone's attempt to get a new car, I fucked up someone's exam study time and attempt to get a new apartment, and I probably fucked myself out of a roommate for an apartment AND quite a few options for a new apartment.
BIG fucking good job there. Fucking moron.
I'm torn between screaming at myself awhile longer, or just taking a knife and cutting penance into my arms.
I may do both.
neeri needed to push up me helping her look for a car today, so I made arrangements with Alex to delay going to olde mill for a bit to do so.The dealership took forever, which was not helped by my bad directions to get to Sterling because I didn't realize she was coming from the opposite side of town. Then Alex had to wait because he showed up while we were finishing her test drive. Then they tried to get her into something she didn't want. Not good, and I didn't help enough.
When Alex and I were getting ready to go, I found out that we did not have a couple hours as planned, but less than an hour due to him not remembering an exam he needed to study for. And he mentioned that he really wanted to be in a hurry. So as he followed me over to olde mill, I hurried. And I hurried well enough that I lost him in the Sawmill road traffic. In fact, well enough that he got pissed when I called to apologize, and he went home without ever looking at the apartment because I was being 'way too dangerous'. Probably true.
So. I fucked up someone's attempt to get a new car, I fucked up someone's exam study time and attempt to get a new apartment, and I probably fucked myself out of a roommate for an apartment AND quite a few options for a new apartment.
BIG fucking good job there. Fucking moron.
I'm torn between screaming at myself awhile longer, or just taking a knife and cutting penance into my arms.
I may do both.
