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bzarcherPlaying MMM...can't decide what I feel, to be honest.
I feel REALLY bad for Nikki that this stuff is happening. I really want her to be happy and have a good relationship after some of the crap she's been through.
But...
Chuck has set off some of my "vibes" since I started hearing about him on more than just a Master Ninja basis...
I dunno.
And Isa had a really terrible day at work, in contrast to her really good one yesterday. I wish I knew what to do to make her feel better. Yesterday she was so happy to leave me...and disappointed when she realized I was going back to Wooster.
I wish I understood what goes through her head sometimes. She still doesn't seem willing to address a lot of our issues. Yet...she gives a different impression from what she says.
The two women that I care most about are both in a lot of emotional stress/crap...and all I can do is sit two hours away and talk to them on IM. It's frustrating.
But...I still can't figure out where my feelings are.
Of the two women I love...one is taken (or is she?) and the other can't decide if she wants to really be as close to me as she says or not.
And I still can't figure out who I love more, or what the hell I'm going to do about it.
Except that it's going to hurt like hell.
I feel REALLY bad for Nikki that this stuff is happening. I really want her to be happy and have a good relationship after some of the crap she's been through.
But...
Chuck has set off some of my "vibes" since I started hearing about him on more than just a Master Ninja basis...
I dunno.
And Isa had a really terrible day at work, in contrast to her really good one yesterday. I wish I knew what to do to make her feel better. Yesterday she was so happy to leave me...and disappointed when she realized I was going back to Wooster.
I wish I understood what goes through her head sometimes. She still doesn't seem willing to address a lot of our issues. Yet...she gives a different impression from what she says.
The two women that I care most about are both in a lot of emotional stress/crap...and all I can do is sit two hours away and talk to them on IM. It's frustrating.
But...I still can't figure out where my feelings are.
Of the two women I love...one is taken (or is she?) and the other can't decide if she wants to really be as close to me as she says or not.
And I still can't figure out who I love more, or what the hell I'm going to do about it.
Except that it's going to hurt like hell.
