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I swear by fire, field, brook and stone, if I hear one of my friends slamming, demeaning, belittling or hurting themselves for the rest of the week, I'm going to start doing very, very, very stupid things to others.

If you people were all worthless bad people, I'D NOT FUCKING ASSOCIATE WITH YOU.

You are ALL good, caring, worthwhile people who I believe are worth devoting my time, honor, care, and life to.

If you don't want to believe that of yourself, fine.

But I damn well will.

I'm tired of hearing you hurt yourselves.

I'm tired of watching you tear yourselves down.

STOP.

We are out there. We love you, and we care.

Look at us if you need reassurance. Don't just throw yourselves into nothing!

Please...

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....I think it was about the time I snapped my practice claymore in half over a tree trunk that I got most of that anger out....

sorry you guys had to see it.

I apologize.

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I think I'm ready for the exam this morning....yet I had no urge to study when I woke up, which is kinda odd.

Got dressed, puttered around, and rearranged the Memories section of the journal a bit.

*deep breath*

Here we go.

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So, it seems permanent accounts are going on sale again....

I wonder if I could convince my grandparents to lend part of the $100. *shrug*

If I'd known this last week, I'd have probably budgeted for it, and done it at the drop of the hat, but I don't want to jeporadize the car payment.