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As any of you who also read skarlette's journal already know, she has the opportunity of a lifetime before her. Everything she's ever wanted to do, travel, excitement, and new experiences.

Yes. I told her to go for it. Yes. I told her to go for the interview and take the job if she gets the offer.

Yes, I told her to be happy, even if it means I may not see her for years at a time.

This will mark the 4th time I have told someone I loved very deeply (at one level or another, not all romantically), that I would rather have them be happy than be somewhere that I might be with them.

It hurts. But I know it's the right thing to do.

So, after tucking her into bed and wishing her sweet dreams, why can't I sleep?

I keep telling myself that as long as I'm doing the right thing, I'm able to look myself in the mirror.

So why does the 'right thing' keep meaning I'm going to be alone?

Truly, I must have -really- pissed in someone's wheaties in a past life.

(And yes, I know that I am assuming she will be asked to take the position after interviews and the rest. I do so because I know she is someone who would do the job wonderfully, would possess excellent dedication to the post, would be more than skilled in accomplishing her tasks, and would do an excellent job of educating and caring for the children she would be asked to tend to. I assume she will get the job because I know that she is the best. I would probably be far less concerned if I didn't believe she was capable of the job. Perhaps that's part of what's different? On 2 previous occasions where this situation came up, I told them to try, but I doubted the people in question would succeed. But her...no. I have no doubt in my mind that <lj user="skarlette" will succeed.)

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I love when the universe feeds me quotes.

Rules and responsibilities: these are the ties that bind us.
We do what we do, because of who we are. If we did otherwise, we would not be ourselves.
I will do what I have to do.
And I will do what I must.
-- Morpheus, The Kindly Ones

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Villains fear me. Heroes envy me. Matt Wagner is... The Golden Spectre

....oookay.

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Oh, Anne finally got me a copy of the picture taken of me at Masquerade ball. (Well, one of the pictures, anyhow. I think there were about 6 or 7 taken at various points.)
( Ta-da! )

Other than that....I'm managing. I'll be okay. And...we'll see. All we can do is wait. And in the meantime, I will keep doing my best at what I'm doing.

A Friday Five I actually kinda like answering.

1. Where do you currently work?

User Services and Instructional Technology @ The College of Wooster

2. How many other jobs have you had and where?

Well, let's see:

Alliance Data Systems in Columbus Ohio: Analyst, Collection Services, and Accounts management.
TicketBastard in Columbus Ohio: QA and selling, well...tickets.
Lab assistant and web designer for Westerville City Schools
McDonald's Fry Cook.
Christmas Tree Salesman

3. What do you like best about your job?

I get to help people, I get to solve problems, and I get to work with technology I could normally never afford.
Plus, I work with some truly awesome people.

4. What do you like least about your job?

Restocking paper for the labs. Those boxes are -heavy-! And I have to carry them -everywhere-.

5. What is your dream job?

Mmm....I can't honestly say? Maybe a mix of professional history, watching anime, playing with toys, and messing around on the computer for money?

Thanks to dr4b!