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[bzarcher]

*sighs*

I feel like I should apologize to the people at M3. I don't know what's going on...I've just had very little tolerance for the place this week. I'm sure some of it is related to the floating sense of depression that's been with me for a lot of this week towards Graduation, and I'm sure some of it is flavored with my frustration at my second reader, who has given me neither comments nor scheduled my oral/defense, despite that it was supposed to have been done by now. I don't know...

But at the same time....a lot of what Adminning has constantly been there is still bothering me.....the egos. The being forced to justify decisions that I never was a part of, or holes in the theme which I must argue, the frequent questioning of every decision...I don't know. Everything that gets thrown in my face every time I log in....

I don't know if a vacation would help until this is all over, or just leaving, or maybe nothing would help.

Comments

[homie-c.livejournal.com]

No. Do not leave us. Please? =0)

*hugs*

- Nick

[gigerlicious.livejournal.com]

I'll say what I've said in the past, for it bears repeating.

If it is no longer fun, stop doing it.

[sixsh0t.livejournal.com]

I'll second Pat's statement, having experienced the same feelings oh, three times now. Sabbatical is the way to go. Most will say leave, but we all know we never can truly leave that place. Its like a cancer. Take a few months, maybe even a year away and when you come back it'll be like an entirely new MUSH.

At least for a little while, then you'll get those headaches again. ;p

[pteryx.livejournal.com]

<sarcasm>My perfectly impartial and unbiased opinion, enough so to make an Elohite blush in inadequacy,</sarcasm> is probably rather predictable: "Because I say so" is not a valid answer. Any position of so-called "power" in which you're forced to employ that philosophy regularly is, quite frankly, bullshit. Since it's also quite obviously an emotional drain, you should therefore drop it like a bad girlfriend. -- Pteryx

it only hurts a little

[chmod444.livejournal.com]

Right now, you can walk away and maybe regret it later. In a few months, maybe you'll want to log in again as a player and you'll be able to have fun.

Keep it up, and you'll turn your love of the thing to bile. You'll hear friends mention it and you'll have to choke back the urge to spit. Those cries of "Dpn't go!" will start to look like attempts by others to avoid work or, worse yet, intentional efforts to keep you miserable.

I went through the same thing with paper-and-dice roleplaying games. I played a lot in high school. It started to get stale in college, but I had a good excuse ("no time"), so I stopped playing early, but was left with a love of the game. I went looking for a gaming group after college. Finding a gaming table that wasn't filled with rules lawyers and munchkins was tiring enough that I gave up, but not without first spending plenty of evenings in misery. Consequently, I haven't had the slightest urge to look at that stuff in the last year or so. I tried too hard and ended up ruining a hobby that I used to love.