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[bzarcher]

*sighs*

Long deep breaths, and classes, and it does a lot.

I'm really sorry about how I acted this morning. There really aren't any good words. Lack of sleep, and frustration, and just....

Yeah. And I shouldn't have done it. And I promise I will be better from here on out, if I can.

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[gigerlicious.livejournal.com]

I seem to see a dichotomy to your recent posts. Part of the time you seem eager, almost fanatical about helping your friends, pining in agony how you cannot be everywhere for everybody for everything. Part of the time you seem to have a bitter, visceral reactionary snap, sick of being used and abused, a shade away from decrying humanity as a race. I care not to ask the whys and whens, but rather the hows.


How are you going to sort through these swings, dog? You seem to never have inner peace, to fly from one end of the spectrum to the other. Emotions are not the culprit, you must be master in the house of Matt. Put that stake in the ground and consolidate your feelings. Do not let your feelings consolidate you.


Namastay.

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

Honestly...I don't know.

Some of it just comes in the difference between choosing where I help, and when it feels like it's all being forcefully dropped on me. But I'm not sure where to go from there.