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[bzarcher]

Hrm. I don't know why I'm up this late. I don't have class tomorrow morning, I'm writers blocking on the paper due Monday that I've been tinkering on, and nothing else is really going on. Tired, but I'm still awake.

Kinda horny, kinda frustrated. Mostly frustrated.

I'm kinda getting tired of being here. I want to finish the damn semester and have the chance to drive around and see people, get out....probably won't really help anything, but at least I'll know I have the choice to move around.

Probably going to MarCon. Probably going to BotCon. Part of me wonders if I should try going to the dances and stuff to cruise for a girl or something. But...part of it feels wrong given who I wish I -would- be dancing with, since I doubt she'd be there. The other reason it feels wrong is who really'd be interested in someone like me?

I'm reasonably certain that I'm getting self abusive. Should probably stop, but on the other hand, it's something I do really well, so why stop?

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[ixx.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't hold yourself back from doing the things you want to do, you know. There's always a chance you'd be pleasantly surprised, or just end up having a good time. :P

[bzarcher.livejournal.com]

True.

I should also stop writing LJs after midnight, tho. :D I get far too depressive and hard on myself.