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[bzarcher]

For the record, lugging 180 pounds of paper boxes up and down stairs will do nothing for feeling exhausted.

Past that....we've certainly erupted several debates here and there about what's going on with M3, but a few comments have, for better or worse, stuck in my mind, namely that things definently aren't right if the admin are all on the verge of cracking, and that if I quit I can be easily replaced and nobody will notice after a bit.

I wonder if maybe that would be the solution for me. My vacations have never really helped, and things were usually worse when I got back than when I left. Maybe just unplugging from the whole mess...put my one FC on vacation, and go away for a bit.

But that doesn't seem fair, or right, or responsible, so I don't really think it's a solution, when I look at it.

Correction: it is a solution, just not one I can comfortably stand by.

Past that, I dunno. I'm gonna have my internship interview on Friday, which is good news.
(My boss cracked up about the fact that I addressed the cover letter to "Madam" rather than her name.)

I also fear I'm slipping into a depression, as about the only things that cheer me up lately are shooting people in UT2k3 and talking to skarlette, and that's probably not healthy at all.

So, I'll see if I can pull myself out of it, and at some point I need to do my oral defense, too, when I hear from my second reader.

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[spiralpegasus.livejournal.com]

UT2k3, bah. Bah! Desert Combat r00lz j00!

Responsibility...

[grandmoff.livejournal.com]

I have a question about that. Which is more deserving of your loyalty and responsible actions, yourself or an online game? If you remain, and the stress continues to build, won't it bleed over into your offline mood and result in tension between yourself and people you interact with, face-to-face? Doesn't stress have an effect on your ability to perform the things you need to do to further yourself in life?

Will someone die if you quit adminning at M3, or just quit M3 altogether? Because, frankly, anything less than a crisis of that proportion results in no contest, for me. I will chose myself over an online game every time. Online games are just that. Games. Diversions to enjoy for a while until we have more important or enjoyable things to do. When you get tired of playing Unreal, you stop. When you grow weary of Monopoly, you stop. When an online game becomes more burden than pleasure, you stop.

And that is a lesson it took me far too long to learn.

[remliel.livejournal.com]

Chill out and take a break for a while. People who say you will be forgotten are wrong, because a MUSH is more than just an "online game". It's a community. And I know that no matter what you do, I will remember you.

[litagemini.livejournal.com]

If the game is fun to play,
It is well that you should stay.

When the game becomes a chore,
You do not play it anymore.

Tabletopper proverb.