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Mar. 1st, 2004 12:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bzarcherIn addition to everything else, I haven't gotten the chance to talk to Lisa at all this weekend.
I think, despite it all, if she called, or got online, or whatever, and saw what was happening, and could just tell me that everything's OK and not to worry, I'd probably be in a lot less angry and frustrated mood.
As it is, I want to rip things apart barehanded, and I have to go to work really early.
Fuck you, world. Fuck everyone, fuck everyone reading this, fuck Highlights and Medex for not giving me a job so that I could be meeting my potential and living the life I want to live, fuck my parents for not being rich, fuck NVIDIA, fuck the distance, fuck Lisa's housemates for not letting me call after 10pm, fuck the airlines, fuck the gas prices, fuck not being able to just leave my job and somehow still cover my bills, fuck Wooster for believing that paying a pittance and promises is acceptable, and fuck me for wasting my money and my life instead of doing better.
Well, that was theraputic in that I am now angrier. I'm going to try to sleep before I start savagely beating the walls, fridge, or things made of glass.
I think, despite it all, if she called, or got online, or whatever, and saw what was happening, and could just tell me that everything's OK and not to worry, I'd probably be in a lot less angry and frustrated mood.
As it is, I want to rip things apart barehanded, and I have to go to work really early.
Fuck you, world. Fuck everyone, fuck everyone reading this, fuck Highlights and Medex for not giving me a job so that I could be meeting my potential and living the life I want to live, fuck my parents for not being rich, fuck NVIDIA, fuck the distance, fuck Lisa's housemates for not letting me call after 10pm, fuck the airlines, fuck the gas prices, fuck not being able to just leave my job and somehow still cover my bills, fuck Wooster for believing that paying a pittance and promises is acceptable, and fuck me for wasting my money and my life instead of doing better.
Well, that was theraputic in that I am now angrier. I'm going to try to sleep before I start savagely beating the walls, fridge, or things made of glass.
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Date: 2004-02-29 09:44 pm (UTC)Turn the eye within.
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Date: 2004-03-01 06:10 am (UTC)That's a bit scary and depressing. Probably true, but scary and depressing.
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Date: 2004-03-01 07:41 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-03-01 07:57 am (UTC)You forgot about Dre.
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Date: 2004-03-01 07:57 am (UTC)TESTIFY!
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Date: 2004-03-01 10:32 am (UTC)*brings cup of Godiva hot chocolate*
*forehead kiss*
*whispers in your ear*
"It's gonna be okay."
*blanket*
*hug*
*trundles off again*
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Date: 2004-03-01 11:48 am (UTC)