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After seeing a bit of a special on Napoleon, it amuses my ego to compare myself to him in my capacity as webmaster for the S&H program.

I'm considering myself to be in the 'Corsica' stage of things, where after my first relatively benevolent run of despotry, I've retired to a small island where I am surrounded by shepherds. At some point, I'll probably be released by those men believing they can benefit from increased tyrrany, and I shall reign again until that damned Waterloo buisness.

Oh, and I'll need wine. Lots of wine.

And I want some people to wear uniforms.

Tired...

Didn't help I got awoken a half hour earlier than planned by my grandparents calling to see if I could go to the Mikado this weekend, despite having told them and my parents no when asked earlier, because it conflicts with the speaker that I was asked to take out to dinner along with several other History majors, and the conference et al.

But...it's not just that.

I think, as much as I love M3, and as much as I've tried to promote it to others and expended energy, it's starting to grind me down. And some of that may be because I'm standing as Hunter Wiz, Maverick Wiz, Assistant Director, and kinda doing everything else that needs done when we can't catch anyone else, but...a lot of it is just coming out of all of the increasing divides in the players, I suspect. I spend a lot of time either playing peacemaker or apologizing, and more often than not I try to set up compromises and they go horribly wrong.

I couldn't even log in this morning without things exploding, and having to try to do my best to help parties involved.

And the worst part is, I don't know if I can actually leave, or even take a vacation, not only because we'd not be able to cover the staffing holes, but because I strongly suspect the MUSH would tear itself apart in fairly short order.

Egotistical, perhaps, but it certainly feels like I'm one of the few people trying to back and forth to both sides of the arguments, and that I'm the one all the people needing compromises go to.

So. The room is too small, and I am unable to leave.
Edit: People have contacted me asking me to make it a public entry. So I am.

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For the record, lugging 180 pounds of paper boxes up and down stairs will do nothing for feeling exhausted.

Past that....we've certainly erupted several debates here and there about what's going on with M3, but a few comments have, for better or worse, stuck in my mind, namely that things definently aren't right if the admin are all on the verge of cracking, and that if I quit I can be easily replaced and nobody will notice after a bit.

I wonder if maybe that would be the solution for me. My vacations have never really helped, and things were usually worse when I got back than when I left. Maybe just unplugging from the whole mess...put my one FC on vacation, and go away for a bit.

But that doesn't seem fair, or right, or responsible, so I don't really think it's a solution, when I look at it.

Correction: it is a solution, just not one I can comfortably stand by.

Past that, I dunno. I'm gonna have my internship interview on Friday, which is good news.
(My boss cracked up about the fact that I addressed the cover letter to "Madam" rather than her name.)

I also fear I'm slipping into a depression, as about the only things that cheer me up lately are shooting people in UT2k3 and talking to skarlette, and that's probably not healthy at all.

So, I'll see if I can pull myself out of it, and at some point I need to do my oral defense, too, when I hear from my second reader.

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A poster seen on campus on my walk home from work:

4 beers = 569 calories
30 minutes of half-court basketball = 569 calories
Think about what you're doing.

A message from the Substance Abuse Awareness Committee

So....what? Are you trying to tell us to be prepared for basketball if we want to drink? Should I consider a trip to the bar a risk of being forced to get my game on?

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...I want pizza, but don't want to pay for a full-price one because I'm trying to save money.

Anyone willing to go haves? (Who can actually pay me cash and eat it in Wooster? I'm not driving to Pittsburgh for a pie when I have to teach tomorrow. :D)